In a Pickle!

I have been planning a trip to see my oldest daughter, Tennille,
graduate from Massage Therapy School for a couple of months now.

Back then the gas was like $1.45, so I went ahead and figured on paying $2 a gallon, since I new it would probably go up. Well, it has surpassed that now (we use premium) and now it is up to like $2.20 a gal, and will probably be closer to $3 by the time we go in mid March. So gas will cost nearly $100 more than first thought!

Then to top it all off, my husband figured our taxes and we owe over $800 to the state of Oregon and $20 to the Feds. So now I'm looking at nearly $300 just for gas to get to SLC to see Tilly, and then have to turn around and fork out the $800 for taxes!

I am tempted to cancel our trip but it means so much to me and to Tennille for me to be there. I think it does to Tilly. I'm sure it does.. But anyway, I am always so depresed when I think I have to disappoint any of my kids, especially Tennille. I already feel like I haven't been there the way she always wanted me to be, when she was growing up, so I always am so careful to not make plans or promise things to any of my kids.

My mom was constantly letting us down when I was a kid. I even saw her making promises to my kids and making "plans" to do whatever.. and I'd tell her not to do that! My kids have seen first hand of big stories from Grama that don't come through.

I have tried SO VERY HARD all of my life to NOT say we are going to do things, and then we don't! I know I haven't been perfect in that..because things do happen and we can't stop every disappointment. But it has been better for my kids than it was for me, in every way..even with the divorce. That was a VERY bad thing, but even with that, I have made sure they have had a MUCH BETTER life than I had.

Anyway, I am in a Pickle! I have to make a decision. I am going to try and find everything I can to sell to make the money for the taxes... and at the same time, keep my "stash money for the trip" going as well.

I Don't Want to Let Tennille Down!

My Sweet Grandaughter Madelyn Rene